My relationships were never like that. Sure, I could have been a bit better, I made mistakes, we all do. I mostly learned from these mistakes. As of today, I've been married since 1987 and just once.
In 20/20 retrospec, my choice of a long term relationship was a poor one, not totally terrible but not a "soulmate". I have always felt I missed my soulmate, more on that in a bit. I dearly wish I had waited for my soulmate or pursued the one at the time more passionately given the 2,000 mile distance we had. If I had a do-over I know exactly what I would do to make sure I did all I could, and if it still failed at least I would know I did my all to make it work - of course it takes two to tango.
In "Meet Joe Black" with Brad Pitt (a modern day "Death Takes a Holiday"), Anthony Hopkins tells this to his daughter who is a doctor, I wish someone I had told me this:
William Parrish: Love is passion, obsession, someone you can't live without. I say, fall head over heels. Find someone you can love like crazy and who will love you the same way back. How do you find him? Well, you forget your head, and you listen to your heart. And I'm not hearing any heart. Cause the truth is, honey, there's no sense living your life without this. To make the journey and not fall deeply in love, well, you haven't lived a life at all. But you have to try, cause if you haven't tried, you haven't lived.I never selected relationships that were the healthiest for me. Although, I seem to relate better with women and than men for whatever reasons, and no I'm not gay or even close to it. How do I know? I've worked with gays and known some as friends and never had an attraction. As a DJ in a record pool, there were about 15 of us and just three of us were straight. There was no peer pressure or "them" hitting on us, we were just people working together on delivering good music. Remember, the disco was mainly born in gay bars in NYC in the early 1970s.
Let's review a few highlights of some of my memorable Ghosts of GFs Past:
KT: 9th grade. We never went farther than holding hands and seeing a Chicago (Transit Authority) concert that was fabulous. I never forgot that.
I'll see Chicago for the second time next month. Going by myself, my wife is disabled and can no longer do things like this comfortably. It's "me" time, something I rarely do. Last time was seeing Tim Allen at the same venue over a year ago, and that was the last "me" time I did. Just a few hours. And, we don't take vacations as she is disabled.
LR: My first real gf in high school, 10th grade. We were an item for like 2-3 months. No sex or anything past "first base". I was head over heals excited about her. It ran its course and she moved on. I was crushed.
TC: She pursued me. I use to wear a "newsboy" cap (Google it). She out her number in my hat. It was a cute move and worked. I was 18, she was 17. Italian, bubbly personality, ~5' 3" as sweet as could be, and super attractive as the perfect "girl next door", nice shape/body. SMOKIN'! We dated a lot, never got past 2nd base which was fine ESPECIALLY given our ages. (BTW, I was a virgin and will be until I'm 22.) She was mature beyond her age and just a whole lot of fun. A real enjoyable relationship. She could have been the "one".
To be continued...the college years are next, and some of my best experiences.
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